Depression has been washing over my heart for a while now... Casey broke up with me, but said we wouldn't be apart forever...next day he asks Skyhler out...wat a douche...he has hurt me so bad...but i can't help that whenever i see him, see him smile, hear his gorgeous laugh...i fall in love with him all over again...i would fall for him and risk the pain everytime...which sucks cuz i know i need to move on... Now he is cheating on Skhyler, Jed wants to kick his skinny ass, and he didnt show up today >.< This kid CONFUSES me i will never get him...but my heart will always pound around him. Just yesterday....during biology class... sadness came over AGAIN! and i wanted it to go away, save my heart from drowning in it...i cut my wrist with my freakishly long fingernails...i didnt know what i was thinking, i knew that i should never do shit like that...idk how many times i did it...but it wasn't to the point of bleeding thankfully...idk what i should do right now...i wanna tell Casey, but idk if he'd care...what if he asks me back if something really bad happens and i'm the only one left there for him...cuz no matter how pissed he can make me...i will always be there for him and i will risk my life for his/him...idk what to do...
(any advice...? plz leave in comments...i need all the help i can get)